Gray and old and with quavering voice Max lies in
his home office in a hospital bed and converses. Lungs that once sucked in the
desert air flying over Northern Africa during WW II are now barely functional.
Arms and legs once strong and vital have lost their metal. From the neck down,
he is a shadow of his former self to be sure. I have come to visit. It is the
kind of visit that makes one wonder how many more visits are left before Max's
final soliloquy. I would like to be there when it finally happens. I am sure
something profound will be said even if no words cut the air. Max is a
brilliant conversationalist, always reading, always thinking, always dreaming
and very often in the privacy of his own inner sanctuary, reaching out to his
creator with supplications too deep for words. To be sure Max was not a concise
thinker. Surely he would often get lost in the poetry and cadence of his own
sentences. Often he would ask, "Am I making any sense here?" I would
always nod in the affirmative even if I felt he wasn't because the last thing I
wanted to do was derail the linguistic locomotive that pulled the vivid images
through the tunnels of his colorful mind.
Born in 1919 he was my father's friend. Like my
own father, I have always known him. Before I could read I knew Max and his
first wife Doris who we all knew as Dorie. Max knew tragedy. I was about
thirteen when Dorie was killed in an automobile accident on Porterville highway
and their youngest son Bill was effectively frontally lobotomized. It was an incident
that would change our family's relationship in ways that my own father could
never reconcile or see coming. It was my father who was called when the news
came that Dorie was dead. Someone had to tell Max and John Lavender the pastor
of the First Baptist Church could not be reached. Max was doing a job over at
Norm Larson's dairy and when my father arrived Max had already gotten the news.
My father was always grateful for that. I think it would be fair to say, and
not without cause, Max became a hermit for some time after Dorie's untimely
death. He continued to run his contracting business, after all he still had
three children to support, but Max stopped playing a significant role in our
lives. It was hard on my father because he loved him and he struggled to
understand his own loss. It was the same for my mother because she had lost a
second sister one of blood and one of bond before it was time both due to
automobile accidents. I was a kid and had little sense of human tragedy until I
met Max again in my early twenties.
I was walking down Chester Avenue one hot summer
day and was getting ready to step off the curb into the alley between 18th
and 19th streets when a white Chevy El Camino pulled up and stopped.
Max was driving and undoubtedly smoking. We exchanged greetings and before he
pulled out onto Chester Avenue he said, "Come and see me sometime." I
don't know how long it took for us to connect but connect we did. In those
young days in my life I couldn't decide whether I wanted to follow the faith or
the lie; an election I still struggle with even today. I found Max amazing and
he quickly became to me a mentor. He could spin a story that would make you
dizzy with its humor and profundity. Out of the piney woods of North Georgia
his antecedents came to Taft and the California oil boom. With hands as hard as
the times they lived out the Protestant work ethic, raised a family and did
their duty. Raised a family indeed! Max's mother and father begat, if memory
serves, ten children. There was precious little time or inclination for belly
button gazing. I suspect Max was so inclined and I also suspect it caused no
little amount of consternation from his parents. Enough of these tales from
Max's past, it is the Max I know that I am most qualified to write about.
Sitting at Max's feet in those early days were
some of the most stimulating times of my intellectual life. Max had read a lot
but his long suit was the Old Testament. He could make the ancient
stories come alive in ways my early Sunday school teachers could never have
imagined possible. Max was a man of vision and imagination; my Sunday school
teachers on the other hand were by and large, cannon fodder. If Max were
looking over my shoulder at this moment he would remind me now that
civilization was built on cannon fodder, and he would be right and I would be
properly admonished.
Max possessed a great deal of pride but was not
prideful. He was much too smart to be obvious. It would be a mistake not to
mention something about Max's comportment because it was a big part of who he
was. As thin as a fence rail and with a mop of hair that refused to let go, Max
was a striking figure; handsome to say the least. He wore his clothes well.
Whether in suit and tie at church or at work dressed in khaki pants and
Wellington boots his pant legs half tucked in, he cast a figure worthy of his
generation. It is hard not to be too effusive when speaking of Max's demeanor.
Even in later years when an oxygen canister became his companion whenever he was
out, there was something special about him. I remember one Christmas Eve when
we sat on opposite sides of the church at midnight mass watching him and
glorying in our friendship. Dignity was the word that came to me that holy
night. A dignity that filled the church like the great swell of the organ that
played the Christmas anthems that filled us with wonder and hope. There was
always a sense of new beginnings brought to us by the new possibility laying in
the crèche.
In the year 2000 my father died. I was devastated.
I remember little of the day of his funeral. As I approached the doors of the
First Baptist Church Max was there to say goodbye to his old friend and say
something to his friend the son. Max embraced me and let me go as if I were a
hot rock. That was Max. I knew he had given what he could physically. He then
said something to me I will never forget and indeed it is one of the few things
I remember from that day. "You will see him again," he said in his
unbelievably expressive voice.
It has been over two years since I last added
anything significant to this essay. I held to this suspicious and superstitious
notion that if I finished the writing Max would die and I didn't want that. Max
quite fittingly did die on Good Friday 2006. I have grieved my loss. Gone is my
friend. Gone is my advisor. Gone is my second father. Gone are the visits and
the chats. Gone are the days we would just chew the fat over what Max would
have called the eternal verities. Gone. Gone. Gone. And Max because you told me
so, I will believe that I will see you again where you will tell me anew and
with clearer eyes the old, old story. It will be your theme in glory. To tell
the old old story of Jesus and his love.
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